I was having a conversation a while ago with one of my friends and they were telling me about a verse they had come across, and how it was strikingly powerful in The Message version. The verse keeps coming back to my mind, I think it’s one of the lessons that God has been teaching me over and over for the past year and a half. The line that is so powerful is this: “Forget about self-confidence; it’s useless. Cultivate God-confidence.” 1 Corinthians 10:12.
I have learned so many lessons in the past year and a half. But I think that underneath pretty much every lesson has been the need for one thing in my life: God Confidence.
For me this has been so very difficult. I know the truth. I have memorized the verses:
Jeremiah 29:11-13 “11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whohave been called according to his purpose.”
James 1:2-3 “2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
Romans 5:3-5 ” 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”
And yet I still feel anxious. I still feel unsettled. I can repeat these verses over and over, but how do I get them to go deep down? How do I get them from my head to my heart? If we are honest I think that most of us will admit that in one area or another of our lives we all are struggling to find peace (at least I hope I’m not the only one). And it is available, the Bible promises it. It comes down to where our confidence is. Self-confidence is most certainly useless. But if we have God confidence we can have peace. As 1 Corinthians 10 continues “No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.”
I am sitting on the precipice of the beginning of the rest of my life. In 2 weeks I leave for flight and maintenance training that will begin to prepare me to serve God as a missionary pilot in Zambia, Africa. God has made it so very clear that this is where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. And yet I still find myself lacking God Confidence. So what do I do?
- I get up every morning and spend time with God. How can I be confident in someone that I don’t know?
- I remind myself everyday of the promises that He gives. I attempt to put more scripture and truth into my mind everyday than anything else.
- I try my very best to not do anything that I know is wrong.
Beyond that I wait… BUT